The end of DG mode

am not happy today
Isn't it supposed to be a happy day with no midterm test?
Isn't it supposed to be a happy day with no assignment to do?
Isn't it supposed to be a happy day with the classes ended early?
Isn't it supposed to be a happy day with no stress at all?
Isn't it supposed to be a happy day with the nice weather to sleep?
But why I don't feel anything glad and happy with all the things around me now?
Am I not appreciate all these enough and burp out with all these complaints?

Today is the end of DG mode.

I couldn't really remember when was the starting date for DG mode but I knew it was quite long ago. It actually happened before I wrote all sorts of thing in this blog.
Maybe the end of DG mode symbolize the end of my dreams, my efforts and my expectations.
I don't know whether it is good or bad for me.
But 1 thing I am sure that I am kinda sad now and it's kinda hurt to know the fact.
All the broken dreams of mine seems spinning around in my mind.
All the things that I wanted to do but I couldn't do it anymore
All the things that I wanted to say but I couldn't get a chance to say it anymore
Left all the broken dreams in my mind.

My heart seems to be stopped for a seconds when I received the message.
The bitter part from the message shot into my heart directly
The hurting part from the message cut into my heart directly
And the sour part from the message melted my heart directly.
It's not an answer that I was expecting, thinking and wanting from you.
But I've to be brave enough to accept it rather than keeping on cheating myself.

I am glad that you've found the person that you can rely on
I am glad that you've found the person that you feel comfortable with
I am glad that you've found the person that you can spend your life with.
It's a good news for you and me.
At least I wouldn't need to be worried about you for driving alone late at night
At least I wouldn't need to be worried about you for being alone when you are sad
At least I wouldn't need to be worried about you for not taking good care of yourself.

You will always be in my mind.
Nobody might replace you but somebody might overtake you someday.
Thanks for giving me all the special days previously
Giving me all the special feels
Granting me all the nice dreams.

He is good enough to win your heart
He is lucky enough to grab you in his arms
He is kind enough to be your special one.

I would like to wish, bless and congrats you here

Wishing you a happy relationship with him

All the best to you. :)

Saying "take care" doesn't really heal the pain in me
But it somehow telling me that we are still the friends like before.
Though everything had turned to be the broken dreams
I feel thankful and appreciate the moments of being in DG mode
You will still be the one that I care for. :)

Last but not least, I would like to post this again here.

Make a day for you and me,
Even there will be an end for me,
Love and Like are the feel you are giving me,
It is the time to show that from me,
Sixth of August two thousand eight is a special day for me,
Steady, Slowly, Surprisingly are the way that lead me,
And show that you are the one who meant for me.

I think I should cancel the outing next week,
I don't want any misunderstanding
Sorry for breaking promises
But I am forced to do so.

P/S: DG mode is actually "dream girl mode"