Sitting alone at home is the worst thing for me.

I hate sitting alone sometimes.
It's because many things will just pop up into my mind.
Good things, bad things, EVERYTHING!!
I will smile like an idiot when I recall something good.
But, when I recall something bad, I will lose confidence on myself.
Somebody please occupy my time!Sometimes I will think something very simple to be very complicated
And my this character caused conflict between me and my friends.
I just couldn't stop myself from thinking and developing ideas.
Sorry..

Why am I so careless?
I fell down in the toilet yesterday when I was washing it
There's a patch of bruise at my arm now.
I knocked on the soap holder when I fell down
Damn it, pain >.<
Luckily I didn't hurt my backbone.
Why am I a person who cannot make decision?
There were so many times I need to make a decision but I didn't
Every time when I come to a situation where I need to make a decision
I will start thinking about this:
- What will be the consequence if I decide to choose path A? How about path B?
- Is the decision I make will affect the others?
- Am I able to face the consequence?
Even to decide a place for to dine, I can't
I will always push this to my friend to decide.
It's kinda embarrass when a girl want me to decide but I couldn't
And this happened so many times.
My friend told me that this is the typical characteristic of a Sagittarius.
But somehow, I really need to train myself to make a wise decision.
There are so many decision that I hafta do in future as an engineer.
[can I really be an engineer?]
Just finished calling Maxis center for some inquiries.
I found out that I couldn't even converse properly in English.
I couldn't use the proper word to express my idea,
What I spoke was obviously direct translation from Chinese Mandarin
Everything came into my mind was &%#@&, and I hafta translate it before I speak.
How am I going to survive in future?
By speaking &^%@*? or ah--eh--mm--oo--ar--or mandlish?
Damn, I hafta brush up my English before I'm far away from others
Even my Chinese Mandarin is sucks.
Well, I am getting very lazy nowadays.
Being like a couch potato sitting in front of my laptop.
No wonder I am gaining weight recently.
Tadaa, this is how i look after a few yearsI've spent so much money ever since the petrol price hike.
It's like a chain effect towards everything.
Everything becoming so expensive. The value of Ringgit drop.
I've cut down the expenses for my entertainment, my tidbits and also my car petrol.
Set a quota for my car, he can only drink the maximum of RM25 petrol per week
Seldom take rich food anymore unless having special occasion.
Seldom drive unless I really need it urgently.
But why, my money still getting lesser
I've abused the promises to myself which are
1. I gonna save a specific amount from my allowance every month.
[ I couldn't save the specific amount unless I cut down more expenses]2. I gonna use all this savings for investment.
[ So far my savings is still insufficient for me to start invest]3. I can only spend a maximum of RM10 per day during schooling days.
[I normally spend more than that]Thus,
A+B+C+D= OVERDRAFT.
When I think about the passed
I realized that, there were actually so much
of times that I've been wasted.I realized that, there were actually so many
opportunities that I've been missed out.I realized that, there were actually so many
person that I've hurt before.I realized that, there were actually so many
person that I've not appreciate.I realized that, there were actually so many
things that I've kept undone and just let it go.All these will keep bombarding my mind when I am in an emotional mode.
But all these will gone far away from my mind after I cheered up myself.
And start making the same mistakes again and again.
Something good to share today,
Thanks to rice cooker for offering me a job today.
Though it's not a firm offer, at least I still stand a chance to get the job.
It's just a simple job, eat, write, speak and go with RM50.
Required me to test their chocolate, give comments, complete the survey form and bring my RM50 back home.
Nowadays I am so into to find a job without neglecting my studies.
I hope I could gain more working experience before my graduate.
[money is also equally important. keke~]So I can proudly write down all my working experiences in my resume.
Hopefully my Sony permanent promoter job will be an advantage for me to find jobs in future.
My mind seems to be approaching to the negative path.What I want is to go towards the positive wayWalking opposing the direction of my mind,Towards a brighter future.It will be tough, painful and full of obstaclesI am flying towards nowhere. But I believe strong determination will lead me, To a better path.
Always look on the bright side of life.
Sorry, I couldn't talk properly to you.
My heat beat increase when I talk to you.
It getting worse when my eyes see you.
I will start talking craps.
And my action is out of control.
I am flying towards a beautiful path I believed
Things will be better in future.