Yes, i wanna know

I hope this will never happen on me
but god knows it just simply happened on me
this is what i mind the most
but it just come nearer to me.
I just couldnt control myself
ya, i know it common
but sorry, i am not among the people.
I am special, I am different
Sorry if i've hurt you
but i just duno what can i do to forget about it
there are too many questions appeared in my mind.
I tried to solve it one by one
but one question just simply created when the other is solved
so in the end,
no conclusion, no solution!

i've thought of leaving
it's the easiest way to solve it
but i just couldnt make this thing so simple
just simply you are involved.
I cant allow myself to give up this..
Because i am so deep inside..
I try to compromise
yes, i can.
But it doesnt last long

This is my problem
I hope you are not involved in it
Because i know you will be so hurt
it's not good to be in this situation

Dear god, i hope i could find a way to solve it
To get myself over it
Somebody please lead me
Lead me to a place where we can be together happily ever after...........